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Query: Seek Truth... I was really curious to know that although you say that you realized god and you have spoke with him because you chose the path to seek the truth and not to give into materialistic or sensual world so to speak, what I don't understand is, who maintains your website? how come you have links on your site? If you chose your life to be absolutely simple and non materialistic....so you aren't suppose to be rich....right? because you give up that goal in life?

I am not doubting your intentions here...I am just trying to figure out...how do you live and provide if you have a family without earning money?? or what is it that you do....how do you get fed and clothed or sheltered? I am sure you don't live in a jungle....so how does this work for you?? Please don't take it as an insult...


Kaivalya Jnani:
You use the language often used in the Upanishads (treatises)... wow... you ask and then answer the query yourself. You know very well that self realized masters (gurus) simply reach that stage after crossing through the maze of karma. Having burnt the karma in its entirety... one reaches the stage of self realization... never before!

You truly understand that for a self realized soul it is very difficult to maintain even the basic necessities of life... and that is truly what is happening with me. Until now for the last 15 years I have been spending about Rs 25,000 per month for the cause of community. Maintaining my websites is a time-consuming process.

I have reached a stage in life when my bank balances are not only low... they are nil. Still, I never fear anything in life. If my wife turns me out of the house... still, it would be fine with me! I have chosen the path of spirituality willingly... I never had any regrets in the past or the present and shall never have any in the coming future.


I started in search of God at 11 years of age. By 13 my desire turned into firm conviction... come whatever may in this very life I shall find and meet God... perhaps talk to him on one-to-one basis! On the third of August, 1993 I was graced with a one-to-one meet with God Almighty. My journey of the physical manifest phase ended there and then.

It was possible for me in 1993 to leave my mortal frame within three hours. Somehow my soul atman prompted to follow the path of Mahavira... the 24th Tirthankara of Jainism who after gaining enlightenment (kaivalya jnana) gave discourses for another 30 years. He gained enlightenment at 42 and left his mortal frame at 72. He gave back to the community what he had learnt on the spiritual path.

I was ordered by God Almighty not to charge anything anyone come whatever may. My pledge to God was not whimsical or one-sided. I knew what I was talking of. I had to have a firm commitment so that the grace of God always remained with me. In the initial years of my sojourn on Internet... my monthly telephone bills alone mounted above Rs 10,000 per month. Still, I had to maintain my websites under all costs.


With passage of time... the Internet costs reduced. Still, I have to shell out about Rs 15,000 per month still to maintain my websites. Whatever best I may try... some advertising on my website brings me a paltry Rs 5000 ~Rs 7000/= per month. My indulgence in matters spiritual keeps me away from the materialistic world.

Even though my websites can fetch much more... still, I do whatever is best possible for me. Until now, the shortfall I had been making up from my bank deposits. But in the coming future, I do not know how I shall maintain myself. The spiritual travel... has its own advantages and disadvantages (from the materialistic point of view).

My family always remains disturbed on this account... but I have no remedy! Somehow, I am not inclined to seek donations... unless people send them of their own. Some people wanted to donate Rs 25 lakh each but they asked for certain documents which was not in my capacity to prepare. Had I been a materialistic person... preparing a two-page document was not that difficult. I was simply to prepare a resume... why I wanted the money on the path of spirituality!


In nutshell... what have I got to fear at any stage of life when God Almighty is with me all the time! I am in communion with God Almighty every second of my life. I have reached the cosmic end of my mortal frame... the physical manifest journey. This is my 8.4 millionth manifestation... the last in the cosmic life cycle!

The moment I leave my mortal frame... I shall but attain salvation moksha!

Fearing the down slide... whatever the basic minimum requirements of the family were... I gave that amount to my wife until 2010. I do not know what would happen when she asks me for home expenses beyond 2010. God Almighty is great... and great are his ways! I have an inkling... all would be set right in the coming future.


Although I definitely have a registered website, World Wide Center for Self-Realization, I am the managing trustee and also the peon of my organization. My complete setup is a one-man show. Right from maintaining the websites... replying to all queries day after day... writing new articles essays... is my forte! I love doing it all.

I get queries from all over the world. Some people get so mesmerized after reading some of the articles... their replies really fantasize me. It is beyond their capacity to believe how a person spends about Rs 25,000 per month for the welfare of the community... in spite of the fact that I had to leave my business since third of August, 1993.

Until second of August 1993, I was the managing director of my private limited organization. I was assisting my brother and father in the parental business spread all over India. The moment I had a vision of God... the one-to-one talk with God almighty... it was all over for me. From the very next day I was prohibited from within to go to the office.


Reaching the stage of Sri Ramakrishna Paramhansa... or Maharishi Ramana is really difficult in the present materialistic world... but the bulldog determination of Winston Churchill... with all eggs in one basket kept me going. No matter what I continued my search for God right from the age of 13 years.

I am a civil engineer by profession, a graduate from IIT, Roorkee (erstwhile University of Roorkee). How I completed my engineering is only known to me. Once it so happened in the second semester of first year... I did not attend even a single lecture, or the tutorials in a particular subject. Either I was after God or busy with my morning jogging.

Came the day for the final examination! I was absolutely blank... a zero in the subject! Somehow, I felt very confident from within. It was as if something from within me was prompting to go to the examination hall and sit down. When arrived the question paper... I put my head on the table and went to sleep... tired from the morning jogging!


After about 15 minutes... something within told me to get up. My physical manifest eyes were heavy from sleep yet, I could distinctly see a textbook kept on the table. The moment I looked at the question paper... something within told me to open so and so page. The moment I did that... I was instructed to copy everything down from the textbook.

I simply obeyed... and when came the results of the paper... I had scored 67% in the subject. A subject of which I did not know ABC... never did I attend a single lecture... a single tutorial... yet, I had scored 67% marks in examination. What can we say of the doings of God Almighty! Whatever I have written needs contemplating for it contains hidden ingredients of wisdom!

It is not merely book knowledge that helps all the time. Particularly on the path of spirituality... it is not bookish knowledge... but absolute faith in God Almighty that paves way for learning the gist of Bhagavad Gita... the doctrine given to mankind by Lord Krishna. In my life I have never ever read the Sacred Bhagavad Gita... yet, the moment I realized God it was as if I had dictated the Sacred Bhagavad Gita in one of my earlier manifestations. Everything contained in the Sacred Bhagavad Gita became like ABCD to me.


I again praise you for the manner in which query has been raised! God bless you! You truly are a noble soul indeed!



Essay by: Kaivalya Jnani ... One who realized self in his life time! Send your query!

A to Z of Seek Truth explained in words everyone can easily understand and fathom. More on realized god can be found at : Who Am I  ... Neeru J. - 5th June 2010.

Full text of query: I was really curious to know that although you say that you realized god and you have spoke with him because you chose the path to seek the truth and not to give into materialistic or sensual world so to speak, what I don't understand is, who maintains your website? how come you have links on your site? Don't they have to pay you in order to advertise on your website? And doesn't this mean that you get some kind of money....which means it probably leads to a lot of money?? and if you chose your life to be absolutely simple and non materialistic....so you aren't suppose to be rich....right? because you give up that goal in life?

I am not doubting your intentions here...I am just trying to figure out...how do you live and provide if you have a family without earning money?? or what is it that you do....how do you get fed and clothed or sheltered? I am sure you don't live in a jungle....so how does this work for you?? Please don't take it as an insult...

 
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